sleepies in my eyes

ever woke up with a headache. hm. i thought sleep was supposed to prevent that. but guess not. theres this passage thats heavy on my mind. "do not let the sun go down on your anger". maybe thats my problem. sometimes i have a hard time letting go. i bottle it up for hours, days, maybe even weeks, until i explode into a uncontrollable waterfall of tears. one of which happened last night. i dont know how people move on. i wish you could just snap your fingers and get over it. but thats not the reality in actuality love comes with pain. and the true test is can love overcome the pain.

my first tropical storm

sitting here listening to bonnie letting it all out. in a strange way i envy her. here i am blinking back tears which in return creates this throbbing in my temples. i wonder if it is better to just let it all out. society tells me different. your a beautiful young white female. how can you have any problems. how can i. have i done this to myself. have i went so far off the path that i can no longer return. who decides. who lives and who dies. the answer to that, lies, in the future, presented, in front of my eyes.